Feeling Like I'm Useless Space, In This Insane Asylum We Call Earth

Million different ways

Limited amount of days

Malleable like clay

Hmm...although I hate change

Not from around your way

I'd rather stay astray

The only one who can save me is me

But it's kind of hard, when I'm my worst enemy

It's pretty wild but true

One of life's catch 22's

Don't judge me until you walk a mile or more in my shoes

Your worse nightmare can never compare to what I've been through

I'm not better than you

And you're not any better than me

I do what I gotta do, because it's best for me

Gotta thank Momma along with Step-Poppa

For putting me through school

Even though I do the things I do

I know I wasn't the perfect kid

I may regret some of the things I did

On the flipside...

There is always room for improvement

I'm my own revolution, I create my own movement

Tainted blood

Poisonous veins

Uncontrollable bleeding...disdained

Relentless ways in my DNA

I will overcome those vicious ways

I'll respect what you say

But I do as I may

As long as I don't hurt anyone along the way

I'll continue my destructive ways

Not gonna apologize for expressing the way I feel

I'd be saying sorry for keeping it real

So, I'll let my words spill

Serve you up with a reality meal

Give it to you raw, uncut, out of the bag type deal

I don't have the perfect past

Nor do I know where in my future I will land

Not sure if tomorrow will come for me

So today is what I live for

Isn't that the way it's supposed to be?

Yes, I have dreams, many things I want to do

But I'm lost and honestly I can't quite find that right route

::Inner voice sayin::

Just hold on kid

I know your still at fight

Struggling for your personal rights

Been judged all your life

Feels like there is no end in sight

Dying to be understood

But it's all misunderstood

Wondering if it's possible a person could

Eyes crying...can you accept me for me?

"No sorry girl, your just not in my elite category

You are the gifted underachieving loser

No goals, no dreams

Disconnected from reality

You're showing me your worth

And it's not good enough

I'm up here and you

Well your down there."

*OUCH* a little rough on the heart

Couldn't quite catch my breath to breathe

Those words knocked the wind right out of me

Stomach in my throat

Eyes start to swell

Tears start pouring out

Like a flooded water well

EXIT

The best work of a poet or an artist...is always left unfinished

-MCU '09